My world has been shaken these last 3 weeks. In a good way. A very good way by a perfect 8 pound baby named Megan Merredew.She's shaken me with her 10 teeny fingers and 10 super long toes. Pointy little chin and dark tuffs of hair. Chubby round cheeks complete with a wee dimple. Her big gulps and sleepy milk sighs. The sheer smiles she brings her proud big sibs.
Megan arrived 3 weeks ago on March 1st, the morning after the biggest hockey game ever. Her daddy and I were stunned & thrilled to learn she was a 'she' and Miss Megan won our hearts instantly.
As with any new baby, everything is new again. I do not feel like a veteran with 3 kids at all and so far this experience is brand new.
I've been mentally blogging little episodes since Megan arrived. Like how I sobbed as I left the maternity ward knowing I would not be back. Why I've been frustrated by the lack of breastfeeding support for moms. How a 3rd c-section is nothing like a 1st or 2nd. How hours of breastfeeding + TV viewing means I am more aware of the world news (& the Food Network!) now than I have been in years and suddenly I have a million opinions on it all!
Alas, it has taken me 3 full weeks to be able to think straight or have the time to write something coherent. Or semi-coherent. And since my baby is now crying to fed again, so I won't elaborate now, but I will - and soon hopefully.
But my biggest 'Ah Ha' moment has been the realisation of how unknown my current path is. To be totally honest, I have no idea when I will be able to see past the fog, but I'm hopeful it will all click into place and soon enough I'll find the fine balance.
Tomorrow morning is my first morning alone and fully outnumbered. One mama, 3 kids and a rainy day. I'm prepped with a brand new DVD of the Princess & the Frog, cinnamon buns and a watch to count the minutes until grandparent reinforcements arrive at lunchtime.
It will be a good practise run for the chaos of the rest of my life. Gulp.
Must admit, I finally understand why everyone called me crazy & brave before. But I can learn to love and survive in crazy & chaotic. Miss Megan is so worth it.
3 comments:
she is adorable a-m. bravo to you both
lou
xo
Good luck on your first solo day!! She is adorable and you won't remember how you ever were able to live without her!
Adorable picture Ann-Marie. Glad to hear that everyone is doing well. You will have 3 kids mastered in no time :)
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